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I haven't been here in a while. Actually, I haven't been missing any of it, but I guess that's not that bad.
Its the end of summer, and I'm in Russia. Its very weird when I read my last post and then re-read this one. So much time has passed I don't even know where to start, and I probably won't.
I hate when people say how much their lives suck. It's not like they are the only ones. And if they hate their lives so much, do they even do anything to change them?
I think its actually a good thing that I don't get any comments. Then I won't have to think of what my watchers would think of me. I've been thinking a lot lately, about the future and all.
I hope you know that I've been in love with drawing since 6th grade. I'm going into 9th now. If I could, I would go shopping for art books instead of clothes. If I could, I would be fluent in Japanese than English, and I would live in Japan rather than San Francisco. But that's only an if. I love my life now. Maybe if I got the choice when I was born, then I would have changed it without knowing any better.
Yeah, so back to the thinking about future part. I love drawing, but is it really a career?
You might become an amazing artist and make some money selling prints and all, but will that really support a family and bills and mortgage?
I know, I'm in 9th grade, what the hell am I worried about. But I'm still worried. I don't want to give this up, but I don't want to do this for a living either.
Sometimes I wish I could stay this old. 14. Its not the best age, but its good enough. I would love to sit around all day and draw.
But then again, how fun is it when you're the only one? I'm so glad for my best friend Liv. She loves anime and manga and drawing like me, so I don't feel alone at all. I wish she could improve a lot, and she has little by little, but still. I sometimes want to have a mentor too, just like I am to her. I think I would love that even if I would feel jealous of her every now and then.
As I look through the art sites and find what I've been missing while I was in Russia without Internet, I realize how much I love this. I'm not just willing to let it go.
When I get back home, I want to practice on my tablet a lot. Otherwise why did I spend $300 for it? I want to do babysitting too, so that I can have some money of my own that I earned and didn't just get from my parents. I hope I'll have time in highschool. Lowells supposed to be tough.
Well thats it for now. I want to check back in later.
Oh and now that I think about it.
This is like a diary.
Because even if someone sees it, the chance of them knowing you is nearly none.
Its the end of summer, and I'm in Russia. Its very weird when I read my last post and then re-read this one. So much time has passed I don't even know where to start, and I probably won't.
I hate when people say how much their lives suck. It's not like they are the only ones. And if they hate their lives so much, do they even do anything to change them?
I think its actually a good thing that I don't get any comments. Then I won't have to think of what my watchers would think of me. I've been thinking a lot lately, about the future and all.
I hope you know that I've been in love with drawing since 6th grade. I'm going into 9th now. If I could, I would go shopping for art books instead of clothes. If I could, I would be fluent in Japanese than English, and I would live in Japan rather than San Francisco. But that's only an if. I love my life now. Maybe if I got the choice when I was born, then I would have changed it without knowing any better.
Yeah, so back to the thinking about future part. I love drawing, but is it really a career?
You might become an amazing artist and make some money selling prints and all, but will that really support a family and bills and mortgage?
I know, I'm in 9th grade, what the hell am I worried about. But I'm still worried. I don't want to give this up, but I don't want to do this for a living either.
Sometimes I wish I could stay this old. 14. Its not the best age, but its good enough. I would love to sit around all day and draw.
But then again, how fun is it when you're the only one? I'm so glad for my best friend Liv. She loves anime and manga and drawing like me, so I don't feel alone at all. I wish she could improve a lot, and she has little by little, but still. I sometimes want to have a mentor too, just like I am to her. I think I would love that even if I would feel jealous of her every now and then.
As I look through the art sites and find what I've been missing while I was in Russia without Internet, I realize how much I love this. I'm not just willing to let it go.
When I get back home, I want to practice on my tablet a lot. Otherwise why did I spend $300 for it? I want to do babysitting too, so that I can have some money of my own that I earned and didn't just get from my parents. I hope I'll have time in highschool. Lowells supposed to be tough.
Well thats it for now. I want to check back in later.
Oh and now that I think about it.
This is like a diary.
Because even if someone sees it, the chance of them knowing you is nearly none.
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